I used to have really bad insomnia
that started when I was in the fifth grade. I remember there was one week when I was nine where I only slept an hour or two each night, and for like five years after that, I’d get like no sleep for days on end. It went away circa last year unexpectedly, especially since that’s when my anxiety got worse. Over this past summer it came back a little bit but there were days where I would literally sleep all day, like 15 hours or so, which was great. I don’t think I really have insomnia anymore, but now, I can’t let myself sleep. Like I have this huge intense fear of it, even though I want to go to sleep so badly! Idk like I’m too lazy to sleep? Every night when I’m falling asleep, and perfectly capable of doing so, I’ll distract myself into staying awake. It’s weird. I’m pretty sure I’m just crazy.
